Grief is defined as deep sorrow, especially that caused by someone's death. It's a natural reaction to loss. I lost my father. It's still weird to say it or type it. But I also closed a huge chapter of my life a few months prior to his death. So my grief has been extremely heavy. But in one of the darkest moments of my life I somehow found the light. I found that light through God.
I promise you without my faith I would have been a mess. I am a mess, but not as bad as it could have been. Grief is really a rollercoaster. There are many highs and many lows. There is no time limit and life keeps going while you experience it. Trying to adjust to whatever my life is supposed to be right now has been slightly difficult because my motivation has plummeted. My YouTube channel hasn't had a post since November and my blog barely gets any love from me, but I'm going back to my roots of VhannahMontana.com. I started this to connect with people and the struggles of life and I plan to go back. All of that to say "you are not alone." This is a safe space and get ready for my emotional, grieving self giving you the uncut version of me this year.
In the toughest moment of our lives we learn who we really are. We invest time into becoming the best versions of ourselves after the initial moment of heartbreak. We fall down at times, but we get right back up on this journey. I know I sound like a coach, but it's the truth. You didn't get this far just to get this far. So even though grief may weigh you down in different forms of loss in life, take your time and heal, but don't turn back to your old ways - move forward in remembrance of what once was. This updated version of myself can't go back, because it is literally not possible. So say hello to Vhannah Montana 2.0, the new version. Welcome to my 2.0 world! We embrace our feelings, we cry often, we laugh often and we deal with life's obstacles through grace and faith.
R.I.P. dad, love you forever <3
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